Josh told me he loved Jaz, but of course Jaz and Ian are dating. I feel okay with it though. I fallen into a friend role- I no longer hurt for myself, but for others. He wants to tell her in three weeks- after school ends. I feel unsure. Ian's a good friend and so is Josh. If I had the choice I would tell Ian, but I don't. No one knows this but me, Josh, and another of his friends. I feel sorry for Jaz. In the end she'll have to choose. I wish I could help her in some way. I wish I could make up a magical solution where everyone ends up happy. I wish I could give perfect advice and fix everyone's problems. But I can't. Someone's going to end up hurting no matter what and Jaz will be stuck in the middle. Life sucks, love stinks.

Other than that we had fun. We stayed awake all night and gave eachother piggyback rides around the track that we had to walk. We did crazy hair-doos and studied the stars while listening to an awesome band. We hugged eachother while we cried about cancer victoms and wrapped ourselves in blankets to watch the sun rise. I wish every night could be like that.

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